Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Hurry up and wait...

This is how it always happens.

I don't post for 6 months... then I post twice in less than an hour trying to make up for lost time.

This is how it always happens.

But it's not what works. It's not the way of the world.

Except it is. Because the world is not exceptional. The world resides in the middle. The world occupies the mediocre. The world is spinning and spinning and time is passing and passing and the world is content with its lowered expectations.

I know what I want to say, but I don't know how to say it.

The people who get ahead don't worry about getting it right. They worry about getting it done. And they're so good at getting it done that it can't help but be right.

Drip, drip, drip. Wise men work like this...

What do you want to be when you grow up?

You should want to be the boss.

We all have ideas. We don't all have the guts to execute those ideas.

This is how it always. Happens.

Hurry up and wait. You're so damn oblivious that you can't even figure out that you're waiting for a train that's already left the station.

It's for Future Me

It's been almost 6 months since I've posted in this blog.

I've been busy. I've been lazy. I've bee preoccupied. I've been lazy.

There is one way to make sure I blog. I just need to remember that it's for "Future Me".

This blog has 9 followers. And I'd be curious to see how many of those people actually read every post. My guess is closer to 0 than 9.

But there is one person who has read all of my posts.


And there is another person who, every now and then, every once in a while, every blue moon... goes back to read select posts, to relive the moments and thoughts and stimuli that lead to each post.

Future me.

Future me is interested in what past me has to say because future me knows more than past me but not really because past me had the guts to write it down while future me just passively experiences what past me was courageous enough to document.

Read the paragraph again.

Future me is my biggest fan. And my biggest critic. And my closest friend. And my most jealous follower.

I've written about running, about Chase, about getting married, about changing jobs, about writing solo albums, about sports, about the mundane.

And future me eats it up.

And I don't know what it all means. Damn. No one does.

But future me will always be interested in what past me has to say.

Because I'm nostalgic. Because I'm narcissistic. Because if future me can't be a fan of past me then what's the point?

Rachel's asleep. I like watching her sleep. She's beautiful when she sleeps....

Chase is asleep, too. He turns four this year. I think I have memories from when I was four...

I'm going to play guitar tonight. And I'm going to write a song. And it won't be for you. It will be for me. For future me, for past me, for present me.

Damn. I'm a selfish person.