LYRICS- Said Than Done

Said Than Done

This is all ai have time for

And I know I'm not supposed to apologize

But I'm sorry

I'm sorry, younger me

For thinking I had more time

I didn't. I don't. I won't. 

This is all I have patience for

And I know I'm not supposed to make excuses

But my life is too full

My battery is too spent

I thought I could deliver

I didn't. I won't. I don't. 

This is all I have

It's nothing and everything

I love that it's done

I hate that it's done

I think that it's fine. 

It's not. It's not. It will be. 

Just Keep Swimming...

Head down.

Rotate.

Exhale.

Rotate.

Don't lift your head to breathe.

Focus.

Rotate.

Head down.

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There's a lot to think about while you're swimming. Technique and what you're doing right and what you're doing wrong and how it feels when it's correct and all the minute changes that lead to more/less drag and keeping a high elbow and working on the catch and the recovery and a crap load of other stuff, too...

There are 3 triathlons that look promising: Seal Sprint in Coronado on March 18th, Carlsbad Triathlon on July 8th, and the Long Beach Triathlon some time in September.

I just need to keep swimming and running and jump back on my bike again and have fun and focus and keep it light and set goals and take it a step, stroke, pedal turn at a time...

Keep going, Glynn!!!

Swimming

I started running last June. And it was really difficult at the beginning. I was tremendously out of shape, could barely run jog continuously for 10 minutes, struggled for weeks before finding a groove. But eventually it became easier, and I've grown to love running as a way to stay in shape, be alone with my thoughts, share time with my son while he's in his jogger, push myself past self-imposed limits, inject discipline into my lifestyle.

I start swimming tomorrow. The end goal is to eventually finish a sprint triathlon, but I know that the swimming portion will be the most difficult. But my experience with running has prepared me somewhat for the hurdles, physical and mental, that will be in front of me.

Stay patient. Focus on proper form. Don't get discouraged. Go at your own pace. Have fun.

Can't wait to spend some time with you tomorrow, Swimming.

Accumulation

I watched the Martinez vs. Barker fight on HBO tonight.

Barker was a 15-1 underdog, but he outperformed and stretched Martinez to the 11th round when a right hook buckled Barker, and he couldn't beat the count. Emmanuel Steward hit the nail on the head when he commented that the knockout seemed to come out of nowhere, the punch was partially blocked, but due to the accumulated punishment over the entire fight (especially the last 2 rounds), Barker folded and couldn't continue.

Much to be learned from watching a fight and a performance like Martinez's...

- Sometimes you need to keep plugging away. For all intents and purposes, an 11th round knockout of a 15-1 underdog is a disappointment for Martinez... BUT... he won, and only because he didn't become frustrated and stuck to his game plan and was able to adapt to the circumstances. He kept his eye on the prize and left the ring victorious.

- Slow and steady wins the race fight... If you watched just the knockout, it looked like it couldn't have possibly been legit. Barker had to have been paid off to take a dive like that!!! He blocked the punch and still went down?!?! Impossible!! But not if you watched the entire fight, saw the body punches, and the numerous right hooks that took their toll and eventually led to Barker's demise. It was 11 rounds of accumulated punishment that won the fight for Martinez, not one punch but hundreds that slowly whittled down his opponent.

Take your time. Baby steps. Little by little. Patience. Focus... It takes time, and there will be failures, stumbles, hurdles. But keep punching and dodging and accumulating punishment against your opponent. Eventually you'll get the KO...

Want/ Need

Want:

1. Laptop
2. Lockout space to keep all instruments and recording equipment
3. Gym Membership
4. 3 Bed/ 2.5 Bath House with a 2 Car Garage
5. More Guitars
6. New Drumset
7. New Cymbals
8. More Amps
9. Triathlon Wetsuit
10. Triathlon Speedskin
11. New Road Bike
12. New Wardrobe
13. iPad
14. More Money
15. More...

Need:

1. Health
2. Family
3. Friends
4. Patience
5. Awareness
6. Artistic Release

 Which list is more important? Which list do I focus my energy on?

Cooking

I made teriyaki meat using my Mom's recipe tonight. I will never forget this recipe, and I take comfort in the fact that whenever I make it, I will be reminded of my mom and how much she means to me. There are plenty of other recipes of hers I need to learn and perfect, too: chicken adobo, roast beef, garlic shrimp, bbq chicken, lumpia...

I'm beginning to enjoy cooking more and more. There's something about taking ingredients and combining them to create a dish that will provide you with happiness and fuel and pride. You tend to eat more slowly if you've cooked your own dinner, too. I mean, who wants to rush through such a wonderful meal that was prepared with such love and care?

I made pancakes, too. Then froze them for future use. Just exposition, I know, but sometimes it's necessary.

Cooking requires patience and attention to detail and time management and organization. Good thing I'm starting to enjoy cooking because hopefully this means that I'll improve in all four of those categories.

I wish I had started cooking earlier in life. I hadn't really started cooking and learning the nuance of culinary dabbery until about a year or so ago. And there's still so much to learn.

You know, sometimes it's nice to just write for the sake of writing and not have a grandiose and earth-moving point...

I really like love my blog...

It's easy to get angry

When you've done something wrong, when you've failed miserably, when you've dropped the ball, when you've completely and utterly blown it...

It's easy to get angry. To point the finger. To lash out and make excuses and blame everybody and everything but yourself.

And then, once you've wasted all that energy on anger, you still haven't learned anything. And the cycle repeats. And you end up in a position that makes you angry again.

Anger doesn't really solve anything, but it feels good because it resembles action. But there is something much more productive than anger. It's patience and ownership and analysis and internalization. Or, more simply put, it's shutting up, owning your shit, and making sure you never do it again.

No one never makes mistakes. Some learn, some don't.

Now go forget about all of this meaningless shit for 6 hours and cuddle with your wife and get some sleep... You're a lucky, lucky man...

Patience

I have a lot... and at times, none at all...

Now, now, now, not later, just now, no waiting, stop stalling, get off your ass, get it now, don't wait, don't put in the time, just win the lottery, just get the raise, don't pay your dues, stop practicing, stop paying attention to details, fly by the seat of your pants, now, now, now...

Easy to say when you're 19 and living in the dorms and getting a check from financial aid for books and food and housing and all you have to worry about is finishing the paper and learning the lines and remembering the choreography and the directions to the party...

Not so much when you're 29 and living with your fiance and 1 year old son and driving to work and trying to write music and chase a dream and put food on the table and keep the apartment clean and not drive your love crazy and keep your love safe and still get up in the morning and live up to your own expectations...

Patience.  Because it gets easier, but only if you put in the time.  And nothing worth having ever comes easily (or quickly)...

Wow... a profound quick stylee lunch post... (smirk)

The Death (and Rebirth) of the Attention Span

Netflix, DVR, Tivo... all let us skip commercials.

No one listens to full albums anymore.

Reality shows offer opportunities for fame based on nothing.  (For the record, I recently auditioned for a reality show.  And it was one of the best experiences of my life.  And I am supremely happy I didn't get chosen.  And I am horribly disappointed I didn't get chosen.)

Bloggers jump from subject to subject and digress to ever longer unrelated tangents in their own posts...

Ke$ha... Justin Bieber... 3Oh!3... will they be remembered or will they just live in infamy for being able to strike while the iron was hot and eke out a modicum of success?

Now, now, now... me, me, me...

I don't even have the patience to finish this blog.

But if you go through the motions and keep pushing, eventually something good will happen.

You'll stumble upon a good song.  Or you'll make a customer happy at work.  Or you'll find a way to make your son laugh.  Or you'll learn how to make really good pancakes.

There are several goals in mind that will require my utmost attention:

- Finish a Marathon in Less than 5 Hours
- Record and release an EP with Oh Girl
- Record and release a solo album

Goals 2 and 3 are closer than goal 1.  And somehow all 3 goals are connected...

Patience

I'm typing this out on my iPhone. Which is frustrating. And dumb. And what needs to happen to get this blog update done.



I've never been patient. If there was a magic button that would get me to the heights of the music industry, I would press it. But that's not reality. There is no magic button. No overnight success. No secret shortcut.



So here I am. In the middle of a long, arduous, uphill climb that I may or may not finish. And I don't even know if it's going to end up going well. I may or may not fall flat on my face. But all I can do is stay the course and put in the work. And stay patient. And remain humble. And stick to my ideals. And tell captivating stories. And a million other things that are completely do-able.



I can do this. I just need to be patient.



note to self: never update this blog on your iPhone ever again...